who am i?
Monday, February 6th, 2006for the past year… i’ve been going through a mid-life crisis of some sorts. women with whom i spoken have told me that they too experienced this in their 30’s. it seems that women go through this earlier than men. this is equivilent to that time period when men start buying sports cars (40’s and 50’s). luckily for me, life is still maliable.
i’ve asked myself if the life that i am living is the life that will be happy with. i’ve never had a “hard set dream” of the type of life that i wanted. i didn’t even know what type of partner i wanted… what type of career… where and how far away from family i wanted to be… everything just fell into my life and i did everything by “feel”. so far… that “feeling” has worked well for me, but now… i am at a point in my life where i need to confirm the decisions that i’ve made or make the move to make other decisions. i am fortunate to be able to do this. i don’t have kids.
a question that i’ve wondered is if i am living my dreams or if i am living another’s dream without even knowing it. are what is of importance to me reflected in my current life? is it just something i would like but is not necessary for my happiness? i don’t know, but i wish i did.
people keep asking me if my current relationship is not doing well at the moment. my answer is that it’s doing really well. we are not fighting… we are getting along well and we’ve had open communications.
