my life with depression.com

well, now i understand why i am in search of myself and why i want to be true to myself. it’s because my personality is so adaptive and accomodating. the reason for wanting to accomodate is to maintain harmony in my relationships.

i find this strange however as anyone who ever knew me in my highschool years or early 20’s know that i never put up with shit. it is true that i tended to take on whatever “activity” the current boyfriend was interested in. i wonder if that has anything to do with the fact that i’m open and accepting of others and so it would mean that i’m accepting of their extra activities. i dunno. all i know is that i’m finding that i’m a flower child.

flower child. 1960’s. free love.

well, maybe not.

i think that on the myers-briggs inventory i AM an ENFP. that means that i’m Extroverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Percieving.

i am an idealist who makes decisions based on my personal values and i am interested in meanings, relationships and possibilities.

1. intuition 2. feeling 3. thinking 4. sensing

this is how my personality ranks from strongest to weakest. i guess we develop these “functions” of our personality over time.

i know for damn sure that my intuitive and feeling side is overly developed. because when making decisions, i use my gut instinct rather than objective reasoning. well, i try to use a little bit of that reasoning too, but when i have strong feelings for something, whatever reasoning and objectivity that i have goes out the window.

they say that you tend to start developing your third function around the time that you are going through your mid-life crisis. i’m going through mine early, so i guess i am developing my thinking function. yippy for me. i really need it fully developed right about now.