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who agrees with me when i say that ben affleck looks like he’s found the "right" person for him when he married jennifer garner? he kinda changed when he was with jlo don’t you think? he’s more of the cool laid back type of person just like jennifer g.

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now who agrees when i say that brad pitt is a better match with angelina jolie? really? i used to feel that they weren’t, until my S2BX explained why they do fit each other. he stated that jennifer aniston is too "nice" while brad and angelina are both "rebels" with that rebel type of spirit. i agree. it still doesn’t mean i’m happy about the pitt-jolie union … but whatevers.

then i asked what kind of actor i would look good with or who would be a good actor-husband for me. he said a matt foley type of person. someone who is nice. (he happens to be j. garner’s ex) he said that i’m not into the "tall, dark and handsome" shit. that i’m much more into the make up of the guy. you know - the internal quality stuff: work ethic, generosity, drive, type of ambition, values on relationships with others, conservative/liberalism, intelligence … etc. granted i have to feel an attraction to that person first somehow. that’s a no-brainer …. you always have to be attracted …. he also mentioned someone who is not as "extrovert" as me; actually someone more like a introvert. he pointed out the personalities of my uncles who married my female aunts on the MRCLO side of the family. the MRCLO aunts are so expressive and outgoing. these aunt’s personalities often overshadow that of their husband’s. the men tend to be more passive. i’ve now discovered that they are not as "weak" as i thought them to be. in the privacy of their own homes, my uncles’ opinions still weigh heavily. i would have to disagree with my needing to be with a "passive" person.

i asked him which actress he felt fit him best. he said someone like me. someone who is outgoing, who has a strong personality,  but someone who doesn’t drive him crazy at home. what he meant by that is because he’s such a "task master" and i am such the opposite, we clash. when two people are on opposite sides of the spectrum, it’s just so difficult to find a fair middle ground. if we were closer on the spectrum, then it might be easier to find that common area and stay together. unfortunately, i am on the north pole and he is in the south pole. it’s weird. now that the divorce papers have been file and we’re waiting for the cooling off period to pass (6 months), we are better friends! we both agree that although we are a good match in so many ways, where it’s most important, we are not. that’s really sad.

that’s really sad because it’s hard to find someone who you just really enjoy. with whom you can feel comfortable enough to be your true self with. someone who you can really call a friend before anything else.  again, this relationship was far from perfect.

both of us agree that we wouldn’t have wanted to grow up with anyone else in the world. we enjoyed the time spent together in our 20’s. in so many ways, we influenced each other for the better. we helped each other grow. i’m still not grown up, but i’m happy with where i am.

we were such the power couple. so cool. now we are just great friends. still so cool. hope this divorce doesn’t end up ruining the friendship.

note: i read that people tend to evaluate their values in their 30’s and 40’s. i guess i’m doing this just in time. thank goodness that it’s sooner than later.

i’m hella tired. it’s late. going to go to sleep. OH! funny story. so since i’ve traveled to paris twice this year already, i decided to try to learn the language on my own. it’s funny because i had a dream where i HAD to speak french to someone - i struggled with the "vous" - you formal- form of course. oh. i guess it’s not that funny. well, it was funny to me when i woke up. oh well. i guess you just had to be in my dream to really see why it was amusing. well, i guess depending on who is reading this, maybe YOU were in my dream with me ???  …. ???   hmmmmmmmm? …. vehhhhhhhwy eeeenteresteeeng. ha ha … joke. maybe not … … okay. i’m dumb.

by the way … who remembers feeeeelix the cat. the wonderful wonderful cat?

no. how about g-force the cartoon? that was tight. nope. nope. nope. how about buck rogers in the 25st century? here’s another oldie but goody :  he-man - "by the power of the universe" - lightning strikes his sword. if you remember that, then you have to remember she-ra (spelling?)

okay. no more.

myra -out!