my life with depression.com

oh this life. i guess things are getting better and we never know what is going on in other people’s lives, so there is always the possibility that things CAN be worse. i should know. they can.

it’s about 10:45am and it’s friday. i’ve done a lot of thinking recently and i now have a better plan as to what i am going to do with my life - at least in the short-term.

i’m heading out to emeryville to go look at some lofts and to have lunch with my friend kevie. we’re going to check out key something lofts. it’s in a really good position in the city. there’s a starbucks just right there. for $2300 you get 1400 square feet of living/office space. if i set up a sub s corp, i should be able to deduct a good portion of that etc. to the business. i decided not to work for anyone else to to take the risk. big risks = big rewards or big falls. but, this is the time in my life to take that risk. i can always go back to the corporate world later if i ever fall on my ass.

stbx’s promo finally got all the signatures! he is now a general manager/director  with 600 reports and finally in higher mid-upper management. so at lease for him, that stress is eliminated. we talked about my moving out again last night after a sushi celebration. very supportive still and we both showed hesitation, but that’s normal.

my career counselor said that if i take that sales job, i would be jumping on the same treadmill, but with a different product. she said that i worked so hard to get off of it that all my work might be a waste. i might just find myself on the same couch in 6months. i don’t want that. my therapist says to still dream big, so i am and i’m going to work for myself!

(i wrote this in early september - the 8th to be exact)