my life with depression.com

wow… i just saw a box with my wedding things. the invitation, kissing bells … cd etc. that was hard to find. on top of that, next week is our 4th year anniversary. i’ve just been crying. darian was trying to make me feel better… living on your own will be good for you … etc. … how do i feel? i don’t know. i guess an easy way of describing it is to simply say “i’m sad.” i think that the past few weeks have been so go Go GO! that i haven’t had time out. now things are slow and i’m able to feel my feelings.

i have a set of silverware that i love. not my formal ones, but these other ones. i’ve never really used them. they are for everyday use, so now i will get to use them every day. i just had two other sets that i used - including the one that my auntie emily gave me. she said that all the marcelo cousins have a set of the same ones which she gives to all the married cousins. i guess i’ll get to use my set now.

it was weird packing while S2BX was doing work emails on the dining table. really weird. he’s dealt with his feelings earlier last week and so he is ‘okay.’ i’m the one who’s crying…

my cousin marissa visited my parents for one day just after finishing her honeymoon. we spoke on the phone. i gave her my well wishes for her marriage. this was a bit awkward since in the same phone conversation, i updated her on my life.

well, i wanted to remember this moment and hence the blog for the second time today.