my life with depression.com

who says that cleaning can make people happy or feel better? maybe the same people who says exercising 20 minutes a day will do a world of good for you.

i woke up this morning feeling okay. nothing special. ate my breakfast. drank my coffee and orange juice. ate my madarines and made oatmeal this morning.

still felt whatevers. kevin called and we confirm our meeting today. read my usual websites.

finding the new beta for mac yahoo messenger made me feel kinda good. you can use mac isight/webcam on it now.

i think what’s making me feel better is just the time that i took. i really minimized my time on the phone when i can. i ate junk food when i wanted. i contemplated my life. and most important, i cried and i cried and i cried.

maybe i just needed to blow off some steam. i don’t know. but getting into a fight twice with steph told me that i needed time to blow this over and that i probably shouldn’t be around anyone.

so steve, thanks for the card and the call. i’m sorry i was so short. let’s haul lani and baby madison out of the house and have coffee when i go down because i think i’ve decided to go down. we will see if i actually end up going. you too dave. if you make it down to walnut, let’s grab coffee at the local starbucks. holla’ at me.

i’m taking a break from cleaning and doing my laundry. coming home to a clean house is less stressing than coming home to a dirty one. the plumber and friends tracked in dirt and i’ve got myra hair all over the floor. i have two loads of laundry and i’ve been needing to iron for the longest time. since i don’t go out and wear pressed shirts or anything anymore, there’s not really been the urgent need. i’m a 24/7 t-shirt girl now. not just 16/7 so i always have something to wear. well, not really because i NEVER have anything to wear.

i was thinking of cutting my hair really really short today and maybe getting highlights in again. i got a lot of compliments when i put some color in my hair last time. it’s just expensive to maintain - so maybe not now… well, we’ll see if i have enough time. i have my french class tonight and i am cleaning plus i still have to finish two sections of my french homework. i don’t even know if my hairstylist will be able to fit me. remembering her name is easy since it’s spelled like myra. it’s kyra! cool. she does a really great job and my hair usually grows out really well. so much for this break. it’s back to cleaning.