my life with depression.com

it’s 7pm new years eve. i went to church with my mom today. it was a nice homily on the family. i enjoyed it, but the darn choir has changed all the songs! i don’t like the new our father etc… but like a good former church choir singer, i sang along anyway. i like hearing my mom sing the our father.

anyways, i was feeling good today, so i out of the blue called up my friend steve. i wasn’t able to hang with him since i’ve been down ’cause i’ve not felt well. since i felt good today, i took advantage. he’s been craving this sushi restaurant for a few weeks now, but it was closed. we ended up at bj’s brewery-restaurant in the irvine / tustin area. he wanted to go to french 75, but for lunch it’s way too expensive and i wouldn’t have felt right since he was treating. i’ve been treated to lunch or dinner a lot lately. something that i’m not used to now that i don’t have a “real” job. it feels weird and it feels funny. i’m not comfortable with it at all. usually i’m on the other side since i used to only spend my money on my friends and family and usually no amount is too big. if anything, i would at least split the bill. but people won’t even let me do that.

during lunch, i got a call from paris. steph called to greet me a happy new year. that was so cool! he was at his cousin nicolas’ house. he was there with alex. i told him to extend my bonne année greeting to everyone. cecile didn’t realize that it was me as my french is really awesome now! yeah right. i think that she only heard me say that je suis au restaurante and i’m sure she also heard oui out of me. but if she thought i was native, well, then i must be!

i was mean again to steve as usual. we were to share appetizers, but when i saw the sliders - they are these teeny tiny itsy-bitsy little hamburgers - four on a plate at bj’s - i decided that i didn’t want to share. i know i’m mean, but i told him that i’ve not been able to be mean to him since i’ve not felt well. i guess in the end, i ended up giving steve 1.5 hamburgers. my parents didn’t raise a no-share-bear! i told him that i wished that i didn’t have to drive back home so that i can order more drinks. i had a lemon drop, but wow! was it strong!

we grabbed coffee and i told steve that we should probably head over to his apartment. i was feeling really sleepy from the lemon drop and i was having heart palpitations. that’s what i get for drinking alcohol with my meds!

rather than taking a nap, i made steve watch tristan and isolde! it’s the celtic ? version of romeo and juliet. it’s a good movie though, but i’m sure steve didn’t want to watch it - being that it’s a girly film.

i’m in walnut now and i’m waiting for my aunt and uncle to arrive. i was invited to go with steve and friends to their new years eve party, but i’m hang’n out with the adults tonight!

i was telling steve that this season has definitely sucked major butt, but i guess there have been moments when it actually hasn’t sucked that hard. an example is yesterday. mom and i went to victoria gardens. it’s a newer outdoor shopping mall. we were doing to just window shop, but we both ended up getting a little something from ann taylor. we did a late lunch and we forced my dad to eat dinner with us at a fast food filipino restaurant. we each got a two item meal, but rather than eating mine, i just collected everyone’s sinigang soup that came with each meal. i added rice to it - does that make me bicolana? and i ate my pansit. i told my parents that i’m an affordable daughter since what i ate probably only cost $1. okay. that doesn’t sound that funny. i guess it was funnier that night.

oops the aunt-cle are here. time to eat diner!
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mmmmmmm dinner was good!

we’re watching little miss sunshine now and i just got off the phone with kevin. i guess i’m not the biggest looser after all! he’s staying home alone by himself after all! ok fine…. he’s been sick as a dog since day after christmas…but still ! he’s a bigger looser! just joking…