happy birthday to S2BX - soon to be ex(husband)
Tuesday, February 27th, 2007i called S2BX this morning. it’s his 33rd birthday. this is the first birthday that we are not spending together in about 9 years. how do i feel? weird. i didn’t know what to say, so i said happy birthday - as happy as i can - which sounded faked, i’m sure.
he thanked me.
silence.
silence.
ME
” i sent you something, but it’s out of stock so it won’t be shipped until march 26th. ”
S2BX
” oh … ha ha … thank you M… ”
ME
” i was hoping that i could’ve told you to check the front door. well, i’ll let you get back to work. ”
S2BX
” uh … um… okay. thanks ”
ME
” hope you have a good day. bye ”
S2BX
[he said something, but i couldn’t hear because i was hanging up, but i’m sure it was a good bye]
i guess i better get use to these “first times” there’s going to be a lot of them this year. then next year, there are going to be a lot of “second time in 7-8 years”.
how did i feel after the call or even now? i guess weird and sad. i purchased a dvd yesterday and watched it last night. it’s Sliding Doors with gwyneth paltrow. my doctor friend told me to watch it when i saw him last friday. so i said alright. basically, if you are a hopeless romantic like me, the take away message is:
NO MATTER WHICH ROAD YOU CHOOSE, YOU WILL ALWAYS END UP WITH THE PERSON YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH. MAYBE NOT NOW, BUT DEFINITELY LATER. choosing road ‘A’ will cause you a lot of trouble and pain and choosing road ‘B’ will be less pain, but you will still find your “soul mate”.
UPDATE: email message
M- Wow, what a nice surprise. Thanks for the thought and present. I’ll pretend like I have it anyways, since I’m in class all night tonight. Also, thanks for the other thing you have sent. The Utube clip was funny. -S2BX
