my life with depression.com

tonight, i washed some pots and pans, scrubbed down the kitchen and cooked dinner. i burned it a little, but it’s aaa-all good.

ok … fine … so i cheated. those are actually frozen/re-heated bagel bites. i would’ve cooked, but i cooked lunch this afternoon AND since i’ve already washed everything, i don’t want to have to mess up my kitchen. am i lame?

i’m lonely.

i wish i had more friends up here in the bay area. unfortunately, they are in southern cal. i have more single friends there. up here, my two closer friends are married with kids and family and then there’s kevin - my temporary “single girlfriend”. i joke about this because i don’t have any single girls here to hang out with so kevin has to be it. poor thing.

although i like living by myself and i like having it “my way”, i’m still lonely. i’ve never spent so much time by myself. EVER! even though i’m lonely, at least i’m lonely by myself and not lonely in a marriage. you know…. this year is actually turning out better than i thought - especially after reading this one.