socializing - lunch, lunch, packet and food
Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
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can i say that i am sooooo proud of myself? i’ve socialized twice now and it’s only tuesday!
yesterday, i met with a friend named mike. we used to go to school together and happened to instant message each other last friday. i’ve not seen him and his girlfriend for about 1.5 years. so we decided to catch up at lunch. we talked about his relationship with ‘an older woman’. he says that demi moore and ashton kutcher beat their age difference by 3 years. demi and ashton are about 15 years apart. mike (33) and his girlfriend (45) are both very happy. i’m happy for them. my FRENCHIE and i are only 9 years apart.
then today, i had lunch with my friend anglelica (pronounced angeleeka) and her 9 month old son. he is so cute! we had lunch at the ferry building at the embarcadero, had some coffee, ate some auntie anne’s pretzels and looked around a mall. i am very happy with 
my purchase. notice that i said PURCHASE and not purchases.
i’ve been feeling really good. maybe it’s because i’m trying to stay active and i’m trying to socialize. it’s weird. when i was really feeling my depression, i pushed everyone out. then being alone made me feel worse, but i didn’t want anyone around in my life … that’s a bit confusing - eh?
so i’ve finished my packet for my lawyer and the next step is to send it off!
oh. again, i’m so proud of myself. i forced myself to go to the grocery store EVEN THOUGH i was dreading it. why do i dread it? my therapist asked me why i let so much time pass until i go to the market. maybe it goes along the line of my not thinking i deserve something? i don’t know … just like: compliment on my mental/intellegence (i can accept this) vs. exterior looks (i feel uncomfortable with this one).
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