my life with depression.com

M

hey steve!
do you think that i would be a good corporate events director - gala -fundraising for the american heart assoc..

Steve

Well you’ve planned events on a smaller basis, so that sounds like something right up your alley.

M

YOU’RE RIGHT!!!!
i’m so lucky to have such a smart friend you are totally right.

Steve

Is that what you’re gonna go for?

M

and on top of that .. well,
my cousin is a lawyer for them and she sent me a link to their job posts. she said that i would do great in that and it’s something that i can believe in.

Steve

Yeah, I think so.

M

and i get to talk with interesting people to get money out of them and i might even get to go to these “galas” and wear pretty dresses!!!!! ooooooooooooh yeahhhhhhhhhhhh

Steve

So, are you gonna do that and your business part time?

M

yeah… i have to make money and that’s reality… beside the other business, i am doing a overhaul they say that people do 5 different things before they find the business that best suites them or that become an option for success… if that makes sense

Steve

Let’s see…I was in accounting originally, then was a bank teller, and I’ve been a financial analyst for…10 years now. Can’t believe it’s been 10 years already. Are you gonna have to move, or are they based in San Fran?

M

there are offices around california, but this one is in SF.

Steve

That’s good.

M

we shouldn’t even talk about moving as i haven’t even sent in my resume. i’m kinda scared. scared of rejection.

Steve

True.

M

i’ve never been rejected since this whole depression thing

Steve

Why are you thinking of it as rejection?

M

and it’s done wonders for my ego — like — its killed my ego. like a NO. like a NO you SUCK

Steve

That’s not rejection. It’s work, and it’s a job. It’s not like it’s personal.

M

yeah, but everything that i do becomes so personal for me… i think i will work on that at therapy …. i mean being able to step back. i can say that i am glad that i didn’t get those other positions.. i wouldn’t have had all this time to heal and take care of myself and find who you M is and to define who i am all my by self. i will have to cry to you if i don’t get it… then. merci stevie-wonder-bread

Steve

One day at a time.

M

yeah … i guess… my life was running 100 miles a minute. hey! whatcha having for lunch??

Steve

Had a turkey sandwich. Will have some soup in a bit.

M

hey what time is it? almost 1pm right?

Steve

Yup.
4 minutes.
Why?

M
12:57

apple is soooo cool. they did an upgrade or something so that my computer will spring forward today and not in three weeks
i’m telling you… YOU NEED A MAC i will buy you one when i become a million-gazillionaire

Steve
12:57

Um…my computer did that automatically too.

M
12:57

no it didn’t. you had to manually change it.

Steve
12:58

I mean, yeah. I had to do it all manually.

M
12:58

YEAH! that’s what i thought …. i will have to buy you a MAC!!!!!

Steve
12:58

Had to open up the computer, do some stuff and everything to make it work.

M
12:58

i just opened my computer and VOILA! sooo cooool i should get that job ’cause i own a MAC

Steve
12:59

Then I had to turn the little watch dial on the side to make sure the watch still works.

M
12:59

I DIDN’T!!!
i just opened my computer and LOOKED at the time

Steve
1:00

I think that’s the only reason why they wouldn’t hire you.

M
1:00

HEY!
what’s up … everyone is mean to me today. what should i have for lunch/breakfast? hot pockets?

Steve

Hot…

M

or scrambled eggs

Steve

Yeah.

M

or cereal

Steve

Hot soup and a turkey sandwich.

M

i had spam, eggs and rice yesterday! i don’t like turkey it’s dry

Steve

Not the kind I bought.

M

i just took a shower, so i think i will do with something that won’t stink me up. i’m making scrambled eggs in the microwave!

Steve

So, cereal, huh?

M

hold please. return to what you were going to do… merci steve for your insight! glad to have you.

Steve

[happy face]

M

don’t cry on me now… ok?

Steve

Try not to.

M

try harder!

M

steve! there’s my scrambled eggs! wow i’m talented in the kitchen!

Steve

…is that before or after you ate it???

M

before … it’s only two eggs half a tomato and 1/4 of an onion. and there was a bit of water from the tomato so i had to drain it out…

Steve

Ah. I was wondering what that was. An onion. Thought it was macaroni or something. Couldn’t tell.

M

oh shut up~!

Steve

Thought you were being creative.

M

go back to what you were doing. i don’t think i want to talk with you anymore!