packing away our history / dental appointment - con’t
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
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ok. fine. perhaps i was trying to be too positive yesterday about the move. everything was as i wrote, only at about 4pm while going through the receipts and postcards and itinerary and brochures and maps from our italy trip, i had this sad overwhelming feeling come over me. i think it’s because i spent so much time picking out those damn postcards and making sure i got vivid memories from each one when i look back at them. anyways, i ran to my used-to-be usual crying place. my old side of what used-to-be my side of the bed. covered myself and cried and weeped.
i hit the grocery store before leaving the area to #1 by pass the traffic on the bridge #2 because i’ve been needing to go, but have not gone. i bought coffee flavored häagen-dazs, but i didn’t have any last night.
i got a call from S2BX at about 10pm because he forgot to tell me that a message was left for me by the dentist canceling my long waited for appointment as i have not officially chosen them as my dentist. OH MA GA!
oh, although i could only remember the good stuff of our relationship, i tried to balance that out with the things that i really lacked. those things that he just doesn’t have inside of him to give to me - those that are sooo super important to me. you know?
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