my life with depression.com

today was a slow day. i’m actually glad about that. i’ve been out and about this whole week and i feel like i haven’t been home. i just got done IMing with my friend david and i told him that i actually like being alone. it’s restful for me.

i spent the morning paying bills online and discussing my xrays to my FRENCHIE. he didn’t believe they were mine. he said the front tooth was too long. actually, i was biting down on a metal piece.

i’ve also been looking for an online school so that i can take some early childhood development courses. i should probably know a little when i open the business. it will also allow me to sit with the director of my center when policies need to be written. that way, i can influence the quality and feel of it.

i’ve been invited to my neighbor’s birthday party. there’s going to be 50 people there. i said i would go. i should probably go. but i’m getting that “i don’t want to go feeling.” i’m probably going to see some people who will know S2BX. they work in the same company and they know each other - my neighbor and my S2BX. what a small world. i don’t feel like being “S2BX’s S2BX” tonight.

today, friday is my gramma’s burial in the philippines. since they are like … hours ahead, she’s already been laid to rest right next to my grandfather. i can’t believe she’s gone. my last grandparent. she never going to get to see my baby! she’s so funny. she would give me a hint about the baby thing by saying: i will go to the baptism. when will the baptism be?

she was so cute AND petite. i guess that’s where i get it from. certainly not from my grampa because he was six foot tall. can you believe that? the height skipped my sister and i. my brother is at least 5′10″ - 5′11″

i don’t feel good. i don’t feel like doing anything right now and i feel like crying. i don’t feel like listening to the business lecture that i’m wanted to go to in palo alto. OUCH! cramps… better take more advil.

here’s a plant that i got from my french group member peter… it’s called lady’s hair or something. really nice when it’s big. so fragile…
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OH! and my meds are making me really really really sleepy. i wanted to go out and buy a glue gun, but i don’t think it’s wise.