my life with depression.com

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nurture and how to avoid a heavy heart

while a majority of my time in therapy was on my socializings and feelings on S2BX, my therapist and i did talk about my business thing. i told her that the people that i went to go talk to to get more information from all told me to first have a family child care center so that i know if it is what i want to do. to see if i have enough patience for children (i already know this one -YES) if it’s what i want to do after my career in pharmaceuticals. she said that it almost seemed like they were talking condescendingly down to me.

i felt like they weren’t listening to what i was saying: I DON’T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF THE CHILDREN… I JUST WANT TO OWN THE PLACE!

but they kept going on as if i was going to be right there changing diapers and things.

i guess maybe it doesn’t help that i look like i’m in my early 20’s and all positive and idealistic and all wide eyed.

something that came out of this conversation with my therapist is that she’s noticed that when i am going to do something, i research it so i know what i’m doing or what i’m saying. i researched the whole thing that i have to have done in my mouth … i researched and planned this new business thing … she said that having this ability will certainly help along with my other business experience. for me it’s enjoyment because i’m learning something new about something different. that’s all.

i told her that it’s something that rubbed off on me while being with S2BX. but then again, i said maybe i’ve always been like this and i just never knew because i was never given the chance to do it. maybe this is just part of who i am … if it is, then i’m happy with this trait. if S2BX is an influencing factor, then so be it… i’m happy for this trait still.

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i called some daycare facilities to set up appointments with the directors so that i can interview them. i figured that i should educate myself of their day-to-day so that when it’s time for me to hire one, i will be more educated. i have 5 names from 5 different locations.

i also started on my business plan. OKAY. let me just tell you … aside from looking for a business location, the business plan has got to be the hardest part of this… i don’t even remember how to write a pro forma anymore. but at least i was able to get the executive summary done and the blurbs about the company. i’m tackling the assets, liabilities, cash needed … etc. during the start up stage. i also registered myself to attend a “how to write a business plan” class. i’m hoping to finish mine by then or else atleast have the back bone and just adjust and twist. also, this organization offers free mentorship. the organization is S.C.O.R.E. they set you up with a retired executive or accountant or whatever and they mentor you along. kinda cool.

my fingers hurt my typing. i broke a nail and i think i cut the rest of them too short. oh! here’s a picture of the three sampaguita plants that i purchased. (jasmin) thought there are only three flowers blooming, i can smell their scent from where i’m sitting. OH! this type of jasmin also known as maid of orleans is the national flower of the philippines. we make necklaces out of these flowers … i guess just like the leis in hawaii.