my life with depression.com

ok. seriously … does my plant look sad? i feel like the leaves have drooped down. my FRENCHIE said that i HAVE TO water them. DUH. i’m thinking maybe they got way too cold last night as i left my windows wide open.

why do i feel like i’ve not been home? i look at what i have today and it’s therapy at 12 and then my french talking group at 7:30pm. i hate the fact that i have to pay a $4 toll to go to therapy and then another $4 toll to go to my talking group. see, i go home in between the two. i guess i’m going to stay out in the peninsula today and maybe work on my business plan at starbucks and go to target there and buy some paper towel and toilet paper - why is it that i feel embarrassed when i say tp but now when i tell the whole www that orgasms are almost a thing of the past because of my meds? well, not exactly. it takes 20 LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG f*’n minutes WITH my “best friend” who never gets tired. can someone please say the word frustrated!

this brings me to a thought. since my FRENCHIE is going to be here this summer during 3 months … i wonder if i should drop the dose of my lexapro. i really hate the fact that we have this between us. i was on a depression website and this guy was saying that he will NOT take a SSRI - selective seratonin re-uptake inhibiter - a kind of antidepressant (lexapro …) because he doesn’t want to deal with that side effect. i kinda know how he feels … it’s just … the question becomes … which would you choose: orgasm or depression control.

for me, it’s depression control, but at the same time, i look at “whoever” is my partner and it worries me. i don’t want them to think that i’m not “satisfied” because i didn’t “get one”. there’s such a pressure that i feel. i also don’t want the boy’s ego to be bruised or to not find the act exciting because of THAT. i especially hate it when you have someone who is EXTREMELY “generous” and great. personality and “uh-hummmm” you know.

how did i get to this topic when i first started taking about my plant.

i gotta get dressed. it’s nearing 11 and i gotta get going. you be the judge. do you think my plant looks sad today as compared to when i first got them?

BEFORE:

TODAY: