my life with depression.com

my goodness … i feel like all i’ve been doing since this whole weekend is cleaning and folding cloths. i got into this cleaning mode because i’ve left my laundry unfolded and laundry waiting to be washed for two weeks! who knew that i have so many underwear and cloths! what i don’t understand is … how come i never have anything to wear? it’s kinda hard for me still because in the past, all i wore was business attire. so that means suites and slacks and sweater-sets and nylons and the cutest high heal shoes … etc. then for the weekend, i’d get so tired of that that i would regress to jeans and t-shirt. i used to be an avid shopper at abercrombie&fitch so on the weekends, since i have a younger looking face, i looked like a college student. well, since i’m feeling like a “grown up” now and i’m in my 30’s … i should at least look …. mid-20’s to late 20’s. it’s hard with my wardrobe since all my shirts are t-shirts. i don’t have “tops”. i have plenty of tank-”tops”, but no “tops”. i guess it’s just as well since i hardly go out. i haven’t gone shopping since february when i was in paris. actually, the last times i ever purchased cloths were in paris - except during christmas, but i didn’t really buy anything then either.

am i trying to advocate and give a reason for a shopping trip? moi? noooooo. i’m just saying.

so … i had these unused miles from american airlines. i had to get magazines with them or loose them. so i got 11 different magazines ranging from fashion to high fashion to home fashion to politics and world news to business to mens mags. my FRENCHIE asked me why mens mags, it’s cause i want to know what men read about and to understand where they are coming from and why they think certain ways and what is being marketed to them. i of course breeze through the sports section. besides, it makes for a better cocktail party conversation when i can talk on different subjects. something that’s really important when dealing with people.

i look at it this way too … it makes me a better rounded person.

so here are some of the ones that i’ve gotten in the past … what … like two weeks?

they are as follows: Best Life, House & Garden, Lucky, Fast Company, business week, Forbes, W, Esquire, Blueprint and Jane. Hey! i’m missing one …. i counted two Best Lifes.



OH! and look how nicely the plant ties my living room together … looks kinda bare so i think i must paint something for that wall.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH …. maybe like three panels of vines! yeah! to pick up the green from the plant and the pillows! UH! maaaa-vuh-lis!

ok. i’m a bit lonely. i feel like i’ve pestered my dad and/or parental units to come up here and visit me like … how many times. dates are not working with us because they are leaving for alaska in june and they’ve just come back from the philippines…. they’re like “we’ll come AFTER alaska!” and i’m thinking to myself … ” okay! you guys can take my bed and my FRENCHIE and i can take the other mattress and sleep downstairs!” HOLY SH*T! what a disaster that would be! ha ha ha ha ha … oh well … cross that bridge when i get there.

writing business plans suck. looking for locations suck. trying to find a minimum of 900 sqft of outdoor space sucks - in emeryville. sucks sucks sucks … well, it’s one and i’m gonna get some lunch.