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oh my gosh. i guess it’s been a little over a month since i wrote in my blog. i guess you can say that i’ve been busy. i’m still working on finding a location for my business. they say that this is the hardest part. yeah, they are right. i’ve been all over the place with my frenchie. he’s kept me out and about. he’s the type that can’t stay inside all day. that’s good, because i am and i have to get out.

we took a spontaneous vacation to hawaii. booked it sunday and flew out at 9am the next morning. crazy. i learned how to snorkel. did that every day. got majorly burned and tanned. rented a convertible and stayed two blocks from waikiki beach. it was awesome. embarrassingly enough, that was the first time that i’ve every touched the water in hawaii. yes, i’ve been there two other times. i’m telling you, it all has to do with the person you go with. i’m glad that i went with my frenchie this time around.

this summer gave me a perspective on the relationship that i have with my frenchie. we decide “now what” since we are 9 hours, two countries and an ocean away. this summer has given us a better understanding as to whether “it’s” worth enduring the distance.

i learned that he’s not so perfect in his balancedness and that he can bring out the dominant side of me really easily and that i have to watch it when it comes out. i’ve learned and i’ve been able to see that i can just “let him be.” rather than trying to “protect” him and “nag” him, i learned that i can just let him learn for himself.

i think that teaching went back and forth and that no one really dominates the relationship. that’s good.

i’m tired and sad since i took him to the airport and i just wanted to blog something about trying to reinvent my life. well, i guess i’ll do another post and i’ll write more about my adventures of last month.