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never finished this and just posting since i just found it.

ok. i didn’t write about this last week but i brought up another thing during therapy. i brought up my downstairs neighbor. you know, my dinner buddy. we’ll call him THOMAS. he and i have a few things in common. we are both divorced/going to be divorced. was married with no kids. both were left lonely in the previous relationship. his recent ex and my S2BX are both korean. we are always up for korean food. and we have my neighbor who owns a restaurant as a common friend.

so anyways, i’ve gone out to dinner with THOMAS while my FRENCHIE was having dinner with his lab co-workers. my FRENCHIE teased me and said that i was on a date. nothing serious, just teased me. it didn’t bother me either. it’s more like i was bothered for him if he WAS bothered. my FRENCHIE insists that THOMAS has a crush on me and that you can see it in his eyes. hmmm. i personally have never seen anything in his eyes. i’m too busy concentrating to understand what he is saying. THOMAS kinda mumbles. either that or he just has a really really really really really soft voice.

anyways, i kinda felt uncomfortable.

i brought this up with my therapist. she said that the situation kinda forced us to be living together for the summer, but has he been having dinner with girls in paris? yes. does THOMAS know about my FRENCHIE? yes. then there should not be a problem. but she said if my feelings change for THOMAS for whatever reason, then i have to talk with my FRENCHIE.

also, i see THOMAS as a dinner buddy. she said that i’ve tried so hard and have come so far in creating friends that i shouldn’t loose this one if i enjoy my time with him. after all, i’m “not married” and my FRENCHIE hasn’t made any HUGE GI-NORMUS commitments or anything.

well anyways, my FRENCHIE and i are going to dinner with THOMAS and this girl that i am not sure if he is dating her and some of his law school friends from CAL — UC Berkeley. …. never finished this and just posting since i just found it.